Finding home within yourself includes feeling comfortable in your skin and with your appearance. I have struggled to accept my body image for as long as I can remember - criticizing and comparing myself to other women and other body images, along with aging, didn't help me to feel at home within my skin. Instead, it pulled me further away from self-acceptance. I felt stuck and got caught in a cycle of self-criticism. One day I woke up and decided to break the cycle and I wrote this letter.
Apology letter to my physical beauty
I rejected you, I diminished you, I wanted to change you! I wanted to be "more of this" and "less of that". I wanted to change my age, my bruises, and my so-called imperfections.
Far away from acceptance, I criticized you. I blamed you for trauma, rejection, loneliness, and isolation. I compared you to other beauties and focused on the concept that my beauty is determined by someone who might find me beautiful.
I didn't realize that I was going against you, against your uniqueness and your wholeness.
I didn't team up with you, instead, I wanted to direct you. I abandoned you and blamed you for abandoning me.
I am sorry for not seeing you, for not wanting you as you are, and for not receiving you.
Now I understand, that real beauty emanates from how I relate to my SELF and not from how others perceive me. I want to welcome you and embrace you fully just as you are!
Now I am ready to join you and I feel that together we will be invincible!
Can we start over?
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