My journey started with being lost and I was not even aware of it. I come from a very beautiful and unique region in the North of Italy called South Tyrol. Beside Italian also German is spoken and an official language as a result of Austria’s territory loss to Italy after World War I. I grew up between mountain summits surrounded by the green colors of the forests, having dreams of a little girl, who wanted to become a housewife. As I got into my late teens, I started to feel a huge void and pain within my self that I tried to soothe with an eating disorder. Therapies, medication and other alternative methods could give me some relief but I was unable to find consistent feeling of security and self love. My soul was homeless and isolated - and that was when the music, the colors and the medicine of a country came into my life - PERU
In 2009 I volunteered for a social program in the majestic Peruvian Andes when I decided that something had to change. I was 34 years old and I didn’t want to continue to live in the void. My dear Peruvian friend Charo took me to the Amazon and introduced me to Ayahuasca, the medicine that changed my story.
Up until that point in my life, I never asked myself: Why do you feel the pain? I was disconnected from my past, my body and my soul. Every overwhelming experience that I had in my life was trapped in my body, begging to be released. When I drank Ayahuasca I could connect to those experiences and memories. I could feel my wounds. My deep healing journey with the Amazonian master plants began. Little did I know that healing has as many shapes as the rain forest carries different sounds. So many layers, so many discoveries, so many highs, so many lows, so many intertwine emotions and all of it is part of my journey called life.
In 2015 I discovered Somatic Experiencing, a body oriented approach to release trauma. More and more I could include my body in the healing process while I started the Training to become a SE- Practitioner. Beside Ayahuasca this was my other important life changing discovery for my journey to myself.
Healing is part of my life. Maybe it is the meaning of my life. I will continue on my journey of expanding and evolving. There are many different support tools to walk the healing path. Amazonian master plants and Somatic Experiencing happened to be my two pillars of support that lead me to peace, self love and joy.
My soul is not homeless anymore, I have found a place to call home: WITHIN MYSELF
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