My experience of living many years in Peru has enriched my life in so many ways. From my first visit, I felt an instant connection to this country.
People`s smiles and simplicity, the bright colours, the music and the wonderful and diverse landscape captured my heart.
Charo my friend who introduced me to the medicine, is one of the most special people I have ever met. She is an Andean Medicine woman. She thought me: Being healthy means: being in good relationship with yourself, with other people, with nature and with God. (quechua health concept)
This phrase made me think. Indeed I had neglected the relationship with my self, and done so very easily. As I moved on in my healing process I heard many times the phrase: self love as well as the sentence “You just have to love yourself”.
I heard myself saying this sentence also very often till I realized that it doesn’t resonate with me.
Self love isn’t something that we can JUST DECIDE TO DO.
I think that loving our selves is one of the most challenging things to achieve. It takes dedication, it takes patience and it is the result of having a good relationship with ourselves. To be able to feel self love is one of the keys for having a good quality of life.
When I struggled with loneliness it felt very uncomfortable and I did everything to distract my self in order not to feel it. But the feeling stayed. I asked my self: What if I would be the closet person to my self?
That was a total different approach and so I started the experiment to “partner with my self”. I spend consciously time with my self to get to know me. I wrote down sweet child hood memories that I haven’t remembered for a long time: climbing trees, playing in the grass and baking cakes with my grandma. I connected with my inner child and brought that spirit into the present moment. As I was revisiting the memories I tracked my body and noticed what I felt. This was a very powerful experience for me.
I had put my focus on healing painful memories of my childhood but neglected the ones that made me dream and smile. Even if some memories tasted bitter sweet they brought something new up for me: I felt love for that little girl and I had compassion with myself for the struggles.
That was a new foundation for the relationship with myself. With this foundation it became easier to work on my struggles such as forgiveness, self forgiveness, anger, shame and fear. From this place of more understanding and being more in touch with myself it was easier to work on those wounds.
I continue to discover my self and also to embrace my edges. I will be always with myself. Therefore I want to get along with my self.
Finding home is finding love and I wanted it to find within my self.
Wow, so schön geschrieben. Touching my heart!!❤